Tuesday, April 26, 2005

a short note...

completed 2 papers.
bad. screwed.
3 more to go.
3 more hopes pinned.
started on the 1st day: 22nd Apr
endin on the last day : 6th May
stamina check: low on motivation


woke up with a terrible diarrhea.
still can't get over how bad i did for English Lang Paper. (the mcq answers were released aft the exam)
i should really work on how to let go more easily.
right now, i pray for temporary amnesia. so i can forget the horrendous destruction and focus on the coming papers.

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

"Dance With My Father"


Click on pic to check out the lovely mtv featuring artistes with the likes of Beyonce, Ruben Studdard, Celine Dion...


What is yours?

Monday, April 18, 2005

I've played this song over and over again on my mp3 player and also in my mind today. It reminded me of the pain of losing a loved one. And in my blog, i've mentioned 3 friends who had gone through this terrible ordeal the past year.
My own father, though physically present, had long been considered gone from my side for years now.

Dance With My Father - Luther Vandross

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around 'till I fell asleep
And up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure, I was loved

If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
How I'd love, love, love to dance with my father again

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Yeah yeah, then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I fell asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he, would be gone from me

If I could steal, one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love, to dance with my father, again

Sometimes Id listen outside her door
And I'd hear how mama would cry for him
I prayed for her even more than me
I prayed for her even more than me

I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send the only man she loved
I know you dont do it usually
But dear lord she's dying to dance with my father again

Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream

Sunday, April 17, 2005


Masatoshi Nagase and Takako Matsu in "Oni no Tsune -- Kakushi Ken (The Hidden Blade)"


Hidden Blade directed by Yoji Yamada


Tadashi Yoshida Memorial Orchestra

Looking forward to...

Will be looking forward to these after the exams:
1) The Tadashi Yoshida concert to be held on 7th May, one day after my last day of exams.
2) The new movie by Yoji Yamada "Hidden Blade", opening on 24th April. Hope it'll still be opened for me after the 6th of May..

Saturday, April 16, 2005


My destiny beholds


Kyushu University

Waiting in anticipation...

yeah, it's confirmed. In another 2 months, i will be packing my bags for Japan. just for 6 weeks though. for now, the battle of the wits in another week..
i can't explain how much the scholarship means to me and how the trip will change the perceptions of people of me. But i just want to prove to myself.

Monday, April 11, 2005

Almost end of the semester

Below are pictures of some of the people i worked with this semester. some of them are great. at least those who appear in the pictures. before the i can say "tsukaremashitane", the semester is coming to an end, in 2 more days.. As a comparison with the previous semester, this sem is less fun, more work. like the 4 projects i had to complete. and last sem everything was a novelty. this sem as i'd selected my major, i'm more focus. yeah, and now the exams are a week away. damn, wat am i doin here?! ok, ciao~


English Language Project Group


Management Project Group

Sunday, April 10, 2005

It's all because of me

I'm a really critical - very critical person according to some of the closest people around me. But it's only to them that i'm so critical. i don't want to mould them into the shape i desire, but just to see their rough edges smoothen. Sometimes i guess i ask for too much from these people dearest to me. I put them down and make them feel inferior with my presence. Ok, but this is not another of my depressing posts. just a self-reflection.

well, today's rather well spent. I had a tuition session with the 'china dolls', so i name my twins-students who hail from China. teaching english has never been such a challenge that i get my adrenaline rushing from it. I taught them pronunciation today. All the [k]s, [t]s,..Also, taught them composition writing skills, thinking creatively. i almost made lunch for them. They are too lazy to buy and too lousy to cook. Was intending whip up some simple dishes but my goodness, their stocks are by any standards, low. So well, they had to go hungry. Imagine staying in an unfamiliar place, isolated by the idiosyncracies of the natives, without the presence of your parents. their parents are busy working in china and only visit them once every few months, and each time a few days. So you can imagine them resorting to crap food like instant noodles and biscuits for meals. i'll definitely find a chance to edify them on the importance of having proper nourishment.

I just love the fact that their tuition place is a tunnel away from east coast park. i used to walk over to ecp for a run every time after a session, but somehow i stopped till today. Did a 5km run, i need to lose those love handles, after the exam.

Saturday, April 09, 2005

Still drained...

i've been sloggin so hard these 2 weeks cos of the rush to finish the projects. Sleeping at 3am and wakin up at 7 has become a norm. Certain days i can sleep at 4am n wake up at 6am for school.
4 projects out of the 5 modules..must really take note the next time i choose my modules.
it's not just about spending time on the projects, it's who you are doing with. Alan was just tellin me about some peculiar project mates he encounter this sem.

Morning had my Tokyo project presentation. we were the first group and i'd say it was an impressive opening. I spent almost 10 full hours on the powerpoint presentation and it certainly made the rest of the presentations pale in comparison to ours. Jing agreed that i'll become a workaholic in the future. When i'm at work, the "Do Not Disturb" sign is all over my face. I can skip meals, toilet breaks just to get my work completed.

Then went over to Thom's PGP apartment to return his laptop that i borrowed earlier as a backup. He exploited me by making me ta bao lunch for him and his neighbour. That's besides it, the point is i actually would love to stay in one of the halls. 1st: i don't have a room to myself at home(i share with my brother), 2nd: i don't have a comfortable bed at home, Lastly: it takes ages for me to get to school. The problem: money. Whenever i visit my friend's dorm, i picture myself stayin there.

Then both my tuition sessions today were cancelled coincidentally, so stayed in the library to study. Now, i'm braindead.

Friday, April 01, 2005

Drained.

Slept at 6am, mind you, this morning.
and...woke up at 8am for lessons.
It's amazing how i got through the day.
Nothin special today.
Oh ya, i organised a gathering for my theatre studies group last semester(short of xiaoling & sheila).
Yeah, everyone's still as zany.
When i think about how fun ts practical class used to be, i just thought i should have tried the Acting module this sem. but i chickened out. didn't want to take the risk due to lack of confidence?
that kev really tempts me with upcoming and now-showing japanese films, but well, i need both the cash & time to catch them.
Ah, bought 2 CDs just now. Ray Charles & Keane. I just love any music that sets me in the groove. Going to spin them now..reviews soon to come.


Ray Charles: Genius Loves Company


Keane: Hopes and Fears